Let’s Jam!

Let’s Jam! is an interactive, field oriented exercise, aimed at encouraging everyone to get playing together.

I’d like to turn Let’s Jam into a business, which sets up and coaches private parties, and often is all set up on the street to get passersby playing.

Four phases:

Private events.

Public street jams.

Schools-
I’m working on a kids’ album, free for download, and will make youtube tutorials for each part.
Then when I bring the jam to their school, we’ll all play our songs together.
I’ll record kids playing the parts at jams, and we’ll make a for-sale album with a million credits (all proceeds go to spreading the jam, volunteer performance).

The fourth agenda-
I’ll roam for street folk, asking if they’ll jam for a minute, then I’ll leave ’em with a harp, piano, or battery, so they’ll have a legit way to earn donations, rather than being limited to corrosive begging.

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On Waking

I’m still hanging on to my mania (though it hides of activity until I start creating–if I get moving, look out!).
I work hard, often to give the crash the slip.  I don’t need to crash; crashing is just an attitude–the opposite of flying.
Keeping focused forward is kind of a challenge; like choosing to stay in a great dream–when you start to become aware that it’s in your imagination, and the costs and consequences of the suddenly real world weigh heavy.
It’s hard to feel that the dream is real and also that this world is real.

You can do it; hard things are fun.
By imagination is how we see all things:

-This world that feels so real with my phone in my hand, feels no less real than the other worlds I play in, some of which I completely create.

-Being in the habit of faith is vital.

-Please don’t throw away your other dreams, when in this one.

There’s great fun to be made here, it’s just that gravity’s way stronger.
When you carry your dream voyager attitude with you, throughout the day, it becomes clear that this life is a rich tapestry, but nearly a blank canvas–our attitude determines everything.
I seem to stay within the rules of play in all my visits, and I always look for gaps to push myself out through.

Taking back with me insight that seems dangerously close to confirmation bias,

I now feel, instead of just believe, that the one word that defines my view is play.
I feel like I’m dying when I let myself stop playing, and I love everything when I do.

Playing hurts, sometimes a lot, but it’s a no-brainer decision.
-CGB
#play #choose #imagination #dreams #dreaming #stretching #mania #depression #attitude #pain #growth #hustle #functionalmanicdepressive

Big Chris, Little Chris

It was revealed to me, that I’m a cell making up a hand, that’s slapping into an almost unimaginably larger me, on the next level up.
Seeing the tear that exposes both realities, can be accomplished by seeing and focusing on everything at once (wide eyes).  On a daily basis we narrow our gaze and block everything else out, in order to focus and get the job done; a natural schizophrenia.
I’m a cell, but one that stands up to authority and goes my own way, despite the fact that my life choices cause and continue to cause me, immense pain.

I have similar programming to most, but with variations—there are things that are not the mainstream, but I’m very clearly the path to flourishing and avoidance of death.

I’m a cancer cell; without the resistance of all the other cells, I would likely change everything, and we’d die.
Cancer as we experience it, is the manifestation of normal and healthy mutating cells, adapting the body to an ever-changing environment, but without the properly balanced resistance of the body’s healthy cells. An imbalance toward cancer can be produced by either too much change in environment, creating amplified mutation, or it can be produced by a weakening of the mainstream cells.  
The alternative would be if mainstream cells dominated and eradicated mutative cells; without being able to mutate we would die.
I fix as I see fit, and you guys resist; we both get equally stronger and grow together.
Big Chris is as healthy as me, on this level, because here, I and my environment are dancing flawlessly.  And the little Chris’s that make up my body, are as healthy as me on this level because here, I and my environment are dancing flawlessly.  Little old me has the power to change an infinite number of levels bigger, and an infinite number of levels smaller, though I cannot directly perceive them.
I love you, with the way that I live, Big Chris and Little Chris, clearly I do.
-CGB
“As above, so below.”
“It’s Turtles all the way down”
#Cancer #god #growth #love #balance #cancerislife #cells #mutation #change #psychedelic #tripping

​I Don’t Want To

Our only real instinct is to follow our desires. 

In nature, it served us well.  In a world of stiff competition for basic survival, and where reasoning had not yet been developed, intuition was the only option—if it feels good, do it; if it doesn’t feel good, don’t do it.

But in the Modern Age we’ve developed a myriad of ways to kill ourselves with excess. Our bodies would love nothing more than walking the thrilling path to pleasurable death.

Today, there are a host of individuals who have reasoned paths to their flourishing by supplying our death-urge.

As our reasoning and imaginative capacities developed, no longer could we follow what feels good, without careful consideration of the consequences.

The conflict between the will and the desires is the one of the toughest battles we wage.  A balanced proportion of will and desire can enable a miser to become a millionare, but an unhealthy will and desire can bring an all-powerful king to his knees.

Willpower is analogous to a muscle, and it is the tool which allows our weak brain to coax our bodies into action.  Our bodies avoid pain and follow pleasure in order to survive.  And our will can train that meat-bag, very similarly to training a dog. 

Stretch, reward, be consistent.

Practice doing something you don’t want to do, but that you choose to do, everyday. 

That’s what I’ve done, and now I do it with a fury. 

-CGB
P.S.  Those movies about secret societies in which they ceremonially burn their hand or something, make a lot of sense to me—deciding that you are going to burn your hand, and then choosing to hold it there as it resists, would be an exercise in will overriding the body. 

Be careful; if you override all of your humanity, you’ll become a reptile. 

“Thank you, sir!  May I have another!” 
#Willpower #exercise #will #instinct #painpleasure #practice #grow #stretch #ambition #reptile

Myths

Myths have been defined as: Useful metaphors for working with the unknown.

No scientific knowledge is actually proved; merely disproved.  

Our positive view of what the world is, and how it functions, operates on pragmatic grounds.  After time with a working hypothesis, the tendency is to assume it to be a law. This ends the scientific endeavor prematurely, and can be avoided by simply recognizing the truth of science: it’s another set of myths.
Because I recognize the limitations of my own capacity to operate my mind and understand this world, I am a functional pragmatist.  I love myths, and I search for them across cultures and time.  I also recognize them for what they are, keeping them in their place, and allowing my sense of wonder to freely use the scientific method as a true scientist. 
It takes courage to walk without the false sense of security that certain knowledge provides, but when did we start choosing comfort and security over amazement and discovery?
-CGB
#Myths #science #dogma #senseofwonder #knowledge #reason #courage #comfortzone #will