On Waking

I’m still hanging on to my mania (though it hides of activity until I start creating–if I get moving, look out!).
I work hard, often to give the crash the slip.  I don’t need to crash; crashing is just an attitude–the opposite of flying.
Keeping focused forward is kind of a challenge; like choosing to stay in a great dream–when you start to become aware that it’s in your imagination, and the costs and consequences of the suddenly real world weigh heavy.
It’s hard to feel that the dream is real and also that this world is real.

You can do it; hard things are fun.
By imagination is how we see all things:

-This world that feels so real with my phone in my hand, feels no less real than the other worlds I play in, some of which I completely create.

-Being in the habit of faith is vital.

-Please don’t throw away your other dreams, when in this one.

There’s great fun to be made here, it’s just that gravity’s way stronger.
When you carry your dream voyager attitude with you, throughout the day, it becomes clear that this life is a rich tapestry, but nearly a blank canvas–our attitude determines everything.
I seem to stay within the rules of play in all my visits, and I always look for gaps to push myself out through.

Taking back with me insight that seems dangerously close to confirmation bias,

I now feel, instead of just believe, that the one word that defines my view is play.
I feel like I’m dying when I let myself stop playing, and I love everything when I do.

Playing hurts, sometimes a lot, but it’s a no-brainer decision.
#play #choose #imagination #dreams #dreaming #stretching #mania #depression #attitude #pain #growth #hustle #functionalmanicdepressive

Author: CGBuckner

Christopher Buckner attended several colleges in the Western Washington area, and studied philosophy at University of Washington. He has a history of entrepreneurship, theoretical and practical philosophy, exploration, and grandiose undertakings. He has two children, Tyler and Jaina, which live with their mother in California.

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